I hate it here.
Why is adulthood the worst hood I've ever lived in, and when can I move?
Firstly, I didn't ask to be here, my parents went buck wild without a condom in the 1990s, and now I have to pay bills. Rubbish. How is that my responsibility? I am now in charge of taking care of a human in every sense of the word; financially, mentally, physically, and emotionally. How exactly am I supposed to do this? Where is my ‘How to be an Adult for Dummies’?
To make things worse, I’ve discovered I want a certain lifestyle (rich boujie aunt) and I'm expected to work to pay for it all. I don't like that. Yes, I want to work, but I also want my money to last and work for me. How do I do that? Now, I have to teach myself these things when I’ve already spent decades in education. Why? Because financial literacy was not taught in school. Our school system failed us by not teaching us how to manage our money.
In the year of our queen Beyoncé, what the hell am I supposed to do with Geometry and Algebra? Why didn’t they teach us about ISAs, investments and stocks? They want to teach us about finding what 'x' is, why are we looking for that bitch?
I am now in a constant state of anxiety because I feel like I don’t know what I'm doing and where my life is going. This is not fair, and it doesn’t help that it seems like some of my peers have their shit together, whether it be buying houses or starting a family. I am here debating what K-dramas or anime I should watch while eating a bag of cheesy Doritos. I am trying to be an adult and it's hard. This message is to those who are trying and feeling like they’re failing. You most likely are. However, I'm finding that the key is to keep trying and to find some kind of happiness or at least contentment in the process.
Another frustration I've discovered is I now have to pay a therapist bi-weekly to help fix traumas I didn't ask for nor want. Side note: parents should be obliged to pay for therapy because, as the saying goes, you break it, you fix it. And your girl is broken!
Why do we have to pay to fix the traumas that people gave us? Because we want to be whole human beings. I am sure you don't want to hurt yourselves or others with this raggedy mess but, it needs to be fixed to have a full and healthy life in all aspects.
In conclusion, adulthood is rubbish, but we have no choice but to go through it. As a wise fish once said, just keep swimming.
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